Goodbye Mr A.

terjaga aku dari tidur.
hujan turun dengan lebat.
seolah menangisi nasibnya yang sering malang.
seperti aku.

berbaloi rasa nya tak tidur satu malam.
dapat ku duga hati nya sedikit sebanyak.
biarpun sedikit, ianya membuka mata ku.

adakah selama ini aku hidup di alam fantasi?

earth to lisa. duh!

ya. aku memang sangat desperate.
ya. aku memang selalu berharap pada sesuatu yang belum pasti.
ya. aku memang mudah jatuh cinta.

tapi salah kah jika aku begitu?
salah kah jika aku mempunyai hati dan perasaan dan kau tidak?

biar lah. kini aku mengerti apa yang terbuku dalam hati mu.
biar kau tidak meluahkan. aku mengerti, apa yang tersurat dan tersirat dalam hati mu kini.
biar lah aku membawa diri.
biar kau tidak sudi, aku tak ingin dikecewa lagi.

one down, two more to go.
mr N and mr F.
first come first serve eh?
siapa cepat dia dapat. ;P

goodbye mr A.
so long and farewell.
selamat tinggal.
selamat jalan romeo. ;P

ini ada lagu khas buat mu.





Goodbye Mr A
You promised you would love us
But you knew too much
Goodbye Mr A
You had all the answers
But no human touch
If life is subtraction
Your number is up
Your love is a fraction
It's not adding up

a bitch will always be a bitch.

HEY YOU mothafucka bitch!
don't you dare call me a bitch when YOU yourself is a bimbo bitch ever.
you said what?
you hate me, and will always hate me and don't give a damn about me.
i was never existed in your life, whatsoever.
don't ask my friend to be the messenger, she's my friend, she's not yours.
yadayadayada, blablabla.

SO WHAT? like i care!
i don't give a damn at all!
u think i'm still afraid of you? u wanna hunt me down? huh!
u wanna piece of me? bring it on!

guess what? hell i don't give a damn about you and everything about you.
and am never afraid of you.
such a shorty slut but wanna act tough. sedar diri la wey!

go to hell la!
wait. i know you've always wanted to go to hell.
you belong in there too.

when are you gonna stop pissing around?
when are you gonna stop making people feel miserable as they don't go the way like you do?
well guess what. you're not making me feel that way again. EVER.

insaf la wahai siti nur khaleela.
life is short. bile2 mase dunia ley kiamat.
stop being so bitchy and slutty and start caring for other people's feelings.
you're not all that.
ask for Allah's forgiveness. and other people that you've hurt for their forgiveness.
if you don't wanna forgive and forget. fine by me.
i'm not gonna puppy-eyed begging you like i used to do.

you said go fuck myself? well i say,
i don't wanna fuck anyone.

from this moment i will say,
"i don't even know someone by the name siti nur khaleela. is she even existed?"

be it.
PERIOD.

p/s: guys, pardon my vulgarity. i was so damn mad with someone. it's been so long since i've cursed people around. kuranglah pahala puasa ku hari ini. hurm hurm hurm.

si gadis dan kebodohannya.

di suatu senja, seorang gadis duduk bersendirian sambil tertanya-tanya;

bodoh kah aku kerana menyukai seseorang yang telah menolak aku buat sekian kali kerana takut pada komitmen dan jatuh cinta pada nya kembali?

lama si gadis terdiam. kemudian dia tertanya lagi.

bodoh kah aku kerana menyukai seseorang selama tiga tahun yang hanya sekarang dia menyedari kewujudan ku? adakah harus aku meluahkan atau hanya menunggu sesuatu yang belum pasti?

air mata si gadis bergenangan. kemudian dia tertanya lagi.

bodoh kah aku kerana meninggalkan seseorang yang betul-betul cinta pada ku dan sehingga kini masih menunggu cinta ku bertaut pada nya semula?

apa pendapat kalian? bodoh kah si gadis tersebut?

bagi aku, si gadis itu tidak bodoh.
aku kasihan pada nya.
si gadis tak mampu membezakan definisi cinta dan suka.

bagi aku, cinta yang paling agung hanya lah pada yang satu, Allah SWT yang Maha Esa.

aku berpegang pada prinsip;
john tucker must die. every guy must die! hahaha! ;D

p/s: ini hanya lah fiksyen semata-mata. tiada kaitan dengan aku, kot. ;P

tagged again by kakak makcik. ;)

tagged by nurul aka kakak makcik. (tgh bosan thp gaban, tade mood sbb tu buat. hahaha. ;P)


PERATURAN TAG:
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* Put it on shuffle
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DON’T CHEAT!

Opening Credits:
Picture by Kid Rock (feat Sheryl Crow)
- a very sad song indeed about two people who cant be together eventhough they like each other. ade kah kes ini serupa dgn kes "kami"? hurm hurm.

Waking Up:
Miserable at Best by Mayday Parade
- yeah! sangat setuju! im miserably susah nak bangun pagi! haha. ;P

First Day At School:
How Far We've Come by Matchbox Twenty
- how can we be far when we just set our foot into the school?

Puppy Love:
Holiday by Greenday
- yeah yeah yeah. when i was on vacations, i got struck by puppy loves quite some time. ;)

Fight Song:
The Anthem by Good Charlotte
- i dont ever wanna be just like you! this is a fight song eh? ;)

Breaking Up:
Walking Along by Greenday
- walking along when you've broken up. that is true. ;)

Prom:
You Versus The Sea by Daphne Loves Derby
- a good song indeed for a cool prom nite. i so wanna dance to this beat with a guy. ehem ehem. who wants to be my prom date?

Life is Good:
When The Sun Goes Down by Arctic Monkeys
- life is good when the sun goes down! hell yeah! i lalalove u alex turner! hugs and kisses. ;P

Driving:
All Black by Good Charlotte
- ni time drive malam2 kot. huhu. scarrry! tak pernah drive malam2 oh.

Flashback:
Where You'd Go by Fort Minor
- this song brought back memories. sedeynye! hurm hurm.
where'd you go, i miss u so~
since like its been forever that you've been gone~
please come back home~

True Love:
The Town's Been Talking by The Maine.
- woo. ni cam gossip pasal aku dan ehem ehem je. is he my true love? please let it be him. ;P

Wedding:
Days End by Ivoryline
- so true. once we got married, our jolly days will be ended. hahaha. ;D

Moment of Triumph:
Stuck With Me by Greenday
- tade kene mengena langsung la dey!

Death Scene:
My Paradise by All Time Low
- woo. hopefully it will be true; heaven is a paradise right? ;)

Funeral Song:
Love Machine by Arctic Monkeys
- ape kejadah? huhu.

End Credits:
Cancer by My Chemical Romance
- aiyark. cancer la pulak. takut2. huhuhu.

siap sedia untuk ditag:
1. zaki akizaki.
2. cik lizi.
3. kakak makcik, dh tatau nk tagged sape.
4. sahabat handai ku di fesbuk yang membaca nota kakikukukakaku ini. ;P
5. sape-sape la yang baca blog ku yan tah hape-hape ini.

cemburu melihat mereka-mereka itu.

aku cemburu.
cemburu melihat mereka-mereka itu.
mereka-mereka yang berpasang-pasangan.
di kiri ku lihat rancak berbual.
si lelaki berwajah jambu, si perempuan berwajah comel.
sangat cocok sekali.
di kanan ku lihat duduk berapatan.
kurang cocok sedikit, namun mesra berduaan.

rasa hiba tiba-tiba menerpa.
rasa sedih pabila memikirkan.
rasa kesal tiada gunanya.
ku tahankan jua air mata yang ingin mengalir.

hati ini rasa sayu.
sayu pabila mengenangkan harapan yang tiada berkesudahan.
adakah aku yang harus memulakan dahulu?
atau ku harus tunggu dan terus menunggu?
ku tak ingin jadi seperti dahulu.
meluahkan, dan dikecewakan.

itulah kali pertama luahan hati.
dan itu juga lah sekian terakhirnya.
aku tak ingin dikecewakan lagi.
aku tak ingin menangis lagi. :(